It’s been a while since I wrote a blog post. Most of my writing happens in my weekly newsletters to subscribers.
But I felt the need to have this post on the blog. You see, it’s been a big year. And I know that a lot of the lessons I’ve learnt we are learning at a societal level. There’s a shift I’m noticing and I know I’m not alone.
There’s a yearning for things to be done differently. To feel different. There’s a reason the ‘minimalist’ movement is taking off.
There’s a reason we want to simplify, declutter, make things easier.
It’s because life feels ‘too much’ for so many of us. And we think we have no control over that. Or if we recognise we do have control we have no idea how to jump off this train. The speed, the rocky terrain, the NEVER STOPPING at a station – it makes it feel impossible to breathe sometimes.
I shared a FB Live recently of my biggest lessons of 2017. In it I told The Clothes Dryer Story.
Ha! Sounds so weird. Bear with me.
As I was thinking about this year I thought about how it felt like I was being rolled around in a clothes dryer. Spinning out of control, getting hotter and feeling powerless inside this machine.
So I thought I needed to upgrade my machine in 2018. I wanted a slow dryer. Something that didn’t spin, but just blew on me gently. Not too hot, not too cold. Just getting the job done with ease.
But then I had a huge epiphany. I don’t need a machine. I don’t want to give power to a machine to dry me. I don’t want to give power to anyone or anything to decide when I dry or how. I’ll take the control back thanks.
Hang me on the line please. I’ll dry in my own sweet time amongst the breeze and natural sunlight.
But THEN I had a further epiphany.
I am the clothes.
But I am also the clothes line.
I am also the sun.
I am also the breeze.
I am also the person hanging out the washing.
Hmmmm. With me?
I am all the things.
My life is in my control. I am not some helpless piece of clothing – I am the creator.
I am a powerful force and everything happening is a result of choices I’ve made and continue to make.
During 2017 (and for years before) I kept thinking life was happening TO ME. I thought I had no choice.
Which is so disempowering. It’s in complete denial of my worth, my potential and the responsibility I have to this one precious life.
In 2017 I experienced myself in new ways. I put myself out there in new ways. I took more risks, I loved harder and I cried more tears that I ever thought possible.
In 2017 I lay all the foundation for growing a life I love. On my terms. And it’s not without pain and lots of letting go.
I wish I’d gotten started on this path sooner. I wish someone had woken me up earlier and told me I had choice. Even when it felt like I didn’t, I did. I made a stack of empowered choices, but didn’t recognise them as that. I’ve been stuck in ‘victim mode’ for a really long time.
I remember feeling like I had no ‘choice’ when my kids were babies and I was breastfeeding. No choice to say yes to things, no choice to sleep in, no choice to have my body as my own.
But in fact I was making an empowered choice every day to say yes to feeding them. To say yes to giving my body to my new baby. To say yes to keeping them close to me. I said yes to routine. I said yes to bedtime at 7pm (for the kids, not me!).
I could have said no at anytime.
I was also saying yes to building a business with three small kids. I was saying yes to investing in me. I was saying yes to building a relationship with YOU. I was saying yes to showing up consistently on social media. I said yes in a big way to getting vulnerable and offering online products for sale that I had created (talk about FEAR FACTOR!)
I said yes to so many things and yet, I thought I had no choice.
I chose busy. I chose overwhelm. I chose seeing friends less and working more. I chose to open my laptop every night. I chose early mornings to work instead of walk.
In 2017 that started to change. In 2017 I came back to me. And the weird thing is – it allowed me to serve you in much bigger ways. It allowed me to be present for my family on a much deeper level.
This stuff isn’t easy. I am basically asking myself every day to take responsibility for everything I am and all I have in my life.
Because if I’m responsible for it, I’m also capable of changing it.
Look at everything that exists for you – you created it! And if you can accept that (and not feel like it’s been created for you) then you will see how powerful you are.
I had missed that. For a very long time. And the shift is MASSIVE. It’s taking a while to integrate into my body but it’s completely shifting my perceptive of myself and what’s possible.
I’m sharing this with you in case you need to be reminded that you have choice. That you are powerful beyond measure. That your 2018 can be what you make of it.
I look forward to sharing more with you this year. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me into your life – in to your kitchen with my recipes (the amount of times I’m tagged when people discover my Choc Chip Cookies is the BEST!), into your social media feed with my FB Lives and ramblings, into your homes with simplifying and decluttering and into your souls via the podcast (this episode on Rising has been one of my most downloaded) and my programs and Membership.
In this one life – you have choice. And I believe in you.
Happy New Year x